I wonder if a boxer feels the way I feel right now. I have had my notes done since Thursday or at least 90% done. It is a topic I feel like needs to be talked about and although my experience level in the area is low my spiritual authority as the leader of the church warrants me to share from Gods word about this area. I am learning a lot personally about how to parent and am in the beginning stages of laying down the rules for little O. She is beginning to understand what NO means and what don't touch means. So we are giving her boundaries so she doesn't grow up to be a spoiled and out of control adult.
Right now I am about to re look at my notes... The ending needs work... the beginning needs refinement... I watched myself this week on video and am frustrated that I do some fo the things I do... Little things. Timing things and rabbit trails that at the time I think are valuable and Worth saying but I realize more is not better or retained. I am working to get to at most a 30 min. message. That means less than 5 pages of notes. I am at about five but need to be at about 4 pages. That is hard to do because there is a lot of good stuff to throw away.
So I am nervous. Praying for my neighbors... Wondering if this message will change someones life... Isnt that the point? I am a little agitated... I hope I sleep tonight... thinking about the visitors that will hear this and praying that they see Gods love in it.
I feel like I am preparing mentally to fight... to bob and weave... thinking about delivery and timing... processing the whole event and trying to run through how it will feel and look and be tomorrow. Saturday's are a big work day for me... most of the work happens inside of me... The lump in my throat proves that.
In a way I am going into battle tomarrow. The enemy doesnt want strong families. Each person who helps HPC with its mission is in a fight. We are going to win tomarrow! Get some rest and be prepared I feel a KO brewing.
Right now I am about to re look at my notes... The ending needs work... the beginning needs refinement... I watched myself this week on video and am frustrated that I do some fo the things I do... Little things. Timing things and rabbit trails that at the time I think are valuable and Worth saying but I realize more is not better or retained. I am working to get to at most a 30 min. message. That means less than 5 pages of notes. I am at about five but need to be at about 4 pages. That is hard to do because there is a lot of good stuff to throw away.
So I am nervous. Praying for my neighbors... Wondering if this message will change someones life... Isnt that the point? I am a little agitated... I hope I sleep tonight... thinking about the visitors that will hear this and praying that they see Gods love in it.
I feel like I am preparing mentally to fight... to bob and weave... thinking about delivery and timing... processing the whole event and trying to run through how it will feel and look and be tomorrow. Saturday's are a big work day for me... most of the work happens inside of me... The lump in my throat proves that.
In a way I am going into battle tomarrow. The enemy doesnt want strong families. Each person who helps HPC with its mission is in a fight. We are going to win tomarrow! Get some rest and be prepared I feel a KO brewing.
You should be very happy - The Message came out great! Can you post your parenting books?
Posted by: Adam | June 02, 2008 at 12:48 PM